I have been meaning to do something about my drinking for 37 years now. I do believe that 2014 will be the year that I finally bid farewell to my lifelong trusted companion, who’s name is Alcohol (in case you hadn’t figured that out) and move on. Why now you may ask? I don’t know why now but for the first time in my life I have goals.
I shut down when I was 10 years old. I still can’t talk about what happened but I can tell you what happened after that. Basically 50 years of complete mistrust of any living being and an inner anger so powerful that I was even frightened to be me.
I worked it out the other day with my Blenheim CASA key worker that I have spent a total of 25 years in hospitals, detox centres, day programmes, residential rehabs and psychiatric units.
You want to know my goals? There are five of them.
- Stay abstinent
- Finish every course I start
- Get a job
- Have relationships with people
- Be happy
Thanks for being interested. It means a lot.